I will never be, think, or see the world like most people, and I'm tired of feeling like there's something wrong with me because I don't, or because my healthy doesn't look like what others expect. I'm tired of having that difference judged as "still not well yet" because it doesn't look like the well of people who have lived totally different lives then mine. I'm tired of trying to live up to standards of thinking, seeing and doing that I will never be able to accomplish, and feeling like there's is something wrong with me because I don't.
But what I'm most tired of, is being told that the reason I feel these things is because I have self confidence issues or don't know how to love myself, and if I didn't judged myself and others so harshly, I would feel loved and connected to all.
Hi, Dar. Long time no communication. Sorry to hear that you don't see a point to any of it some days. I guess I'm lucky, I don't need clarification, or worry about other people's take on me. They've all got their own set of hang ups to deal with. Not my problem. We don't get to be here for long, so I just take one day at a time and take the highs and lows as they are dealt. There are over seven billion people on this spinning ball, and what they think, believe in, aspire to, or see as right or wrong is basically unimportant to me. You've got to love and look after you and yours, and not get bogged down with all the global baggage that you can't change. You're what matters. Don't take the weight of the world on your shoulders or expect others to be more worthy than they are. It is unfortunately a dog eat dog world with a lot of hype. Having said all that, it's just my point of view. Whether I'm right or wrong over anything doesn't matter. I ask for little, expect nothing, and am grateful for what I receive. x
ReplyDeleteAnd the point of your response, is it to tell me to be more like you?
DeleteSorry to hear you feel this way. It's hard feeling different all the time. But different does not equal wrong. Keep remembering that!
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