My heart hurts so much I can't bear it.

To anyone who doesn't believe that my love is genuine. I just said good-bye to someone I love very much because I cant stand to hurt her anymore.  Part of me, the part that feels devastated  about  what I just lost, can't believe I would make such a sacrifice. The other half knowing that I would do anything for those I love is not surprised, and is proud that I have followed through with my conviction. 

Right now I don't know whether to pat myself on the back, or scream at myself, "traitor, what have you done!!!?